If I Could Go Back

Good afternoon all! It has been awhile since I posted anything but, I’ve been super busy sorting things out and trying to take care of myself! I have been practicing guitar still! Cover video soon I promise! To be honest with you, this is not why I am here. I am here to reflect and share a large personal part of my past with you. Why? Not that it matters or anything. I’m not looking to get anything out of this post. It’s just something I feel I would like to share and write about. Let me start by explaining…

Practice Preview Prt 3

So, I have been practicing off and on since my forearms and back have been killing me! SAD FACE! 🙁 It’s rusty, but none the less coming along. I’m starting to strum more like a human being, less like animal? I’m sorry for the “shit” I throw in there, I sometimes get frustrated :P. I decided to post the video without editing out the screw-ups. DON’T JUDGE ME! Okay… you can judge me. I’m still learning to sing, that will probably take alot longer then learning to play the guitar *sigh* I sound like a bloodhound at the moment. WELL!…

A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Words

First off, yes this is a picture of me. Photo Credit goes to my best friend Melissa C! This photo was taken in 2010 for my friends practice and portfolio. A basic photo-shoot, that’s all. Yesterday, I had changed my Facebook profile picture to this shot. Why? I simply liked it. It expresses the way I feel lately. Dark, down, hopeless, scared. When I look at this photo, I see art. I see a photo that was taken professionally for my friends experience. What do you see? I want honesty because I am angry, completely livid. My boyfriend today decided…

Random Song Cover

I know! I know! I fell off the face of the earth right?! I’m still alive! YAY? Anywho! I’m still working on my singing! It’s NOT coming along as fast as I wanted it too. Who knew it would be so hard to turn a bulldog into a canary? So as a random post, I was taught a fairly simple song from Hootie and the Blowfish- Let her Cry. I really like this song so I made a short video of me butchering it. SORRY! But hey, gotta start somewhere! Post soon to come! For now, strumming along.

Second Year Anniversary

Happy second year Anniversary to my boyfriend Matthew! Two years already and you haven’t killed me? You deserve a cookie! Your still alive too so, consider yourself lucky. I love you even though you piss me the fuck off 99.7% of the time. Okay, I’m no cake-walk myself. Kudos to the both of us for making it another year! Love your ever so frustrating, annoying, obnoxious, complicated?, “can’t believe I haven’t strangled her yet”, girlfriend

Math

Definition of Math: The study of the measurement, properties, and relationships of quantities and sets, using numbers and symbols. My Definition of math: migraine, headache, anxiety, nightmares. I HATE math. I actually stopped at BEDMAS in High school! So guess what I’ve been doing lately that’s had me so tied up? Well, I believe I mentioned a few posts ago that I was “trying” something new. So I’ve been studying Real Estate. Yep, I hate math, but, enrolled in Real Estate. How the hell does that make any sense!?! 90% of the first course is purely based on MATH! It’s…

Romantic

Are you a romantic? Hell, I know I’m not. But, I do have a part of me that would like to embrace that mushy side. Somewhere deep, deep, down. I guess it’s whatever you consider romantic right? I was scolded today by one of my girlfriends on how I’m not “romantic” enough. What the freaking hell does that even mean?!? Not romantic enough? Pfft. What list or guide is there that specifies there being enough romantic or not? I’m plenty romantic! So I don’t like flowers or love letters, or poetry, or fancy candle light dinners. Does that make me…

Large Fruit

So, keeping busy for the past few days. Studying away for my Real Estate exam that I’m pretty sure I’m going to FAIL! Since I left the class we have all been keeping each other posted via email if we’ve passed the exam. Everyday that I check my email I get another update on another classmate that has successfully passed the exam. Yippee! ….I guess when they don’t hear from me it’s safe to say I failed right? Well on top of all this “excitement”, I recently found out on Monday that I have an Ovarian cyst. Excellent! Just what…

Just For Fun

Yes, you read right! I’m bored and thought this would be something fun to do to pass time. Well here it goes…100 things. 1) I obviously have nothing better to do since I’m doing this. 2) I love reading and writing. 3) I really enjoy drawing and being creative/artistic. 4) I also love music and anything to do with it. Playing, listening, etc. 5) I am really good with my hands. 6) Numbers 3 and 4 are examples of 5. 7) I massage people for a living. Professionally.. I’m Registered. (also refers to number 5) 8) I’m really afraid of…

Noticeable Trend

I have my G exam tomorrow. Do you know how scary it is to take any of your driving tests in Toronto? It is soooo scary that everyone I know, does it out of the city, mainly up north. Not me. I did my G2 here, and now it’s time for my G. Only thing is…. I CAN’T PARALLEL PARK OR REVERSE PARK TO SAVE MY LIFE! Why?!? Because I never used these things! I don’t drive downtown and I always make sure I have a pull through parking spot! If I don’t at first, I drive around in circles…